Dear Reader,
Recently, I was organizing my closet, and this venture was not something I enjoyed doing. You see, organizing was more so cleaning out my closet and the necessity to get rid of some clothes that, well, were a bit tight. Yeah, you read that right...I gained some weight during these last few months. As with most things in my life, God speaks to me through the little things.
So what were my options here? I could easily get myself in a major depression because I'm a little more rounder than I'd like to be, or I could do something about it, and thank God that I was able to have food on my table to make me plumpy (LOL)
I began to try on some shirts...and nope, in the bag it goes. Some pants...nope, in the bag. At this moment, I began to feel a bit overwhelmed. Quickly realizing the feeling, I sat down on the edge of my bed, took a second, and asked myself, why am I getting so overwhelmed with letting go of clothes?
As I sat there looking within myself and questioning, I began to hear the answers. You see, God was showing me that I had some emotional connection to these clothes. Why? Well, because most of the clothes I had to get rid of were given to me. Letting it go, somehow translated to letting the persons that gifted me the clothes, down, as if somehow they would get upset, disappointed, or feel as if I didn't care about the gift they gave me. I'm not talking about something that was given to me like, yesterday. I mean, I had some of these clothes for over 5 years!
I had to detach myself from that false thinking. Mostly because, well, it's wrong thinking. However, the other reality is, how is that person or persons going to know I got rid of it unless they ask me about it? Obviously, that can happen, but the lie that they would feel disappointed or upset with me because I gained weight and couldn't wear it, is far from the truth. Let's face the reality. The fact is, that some of the shirts had some moth-bite holes, or I wore them so much that they were worn out.
This made me think about relationships and connections to other things that can be unhealthy. How often do we hold onto someone because we don't want to hurt them, disappoint them, or make them upset? Meanwhile, those same persons aren't thinking the same way. Now hear me clearly!
I am not saying "eye for an eye". I'm just pointing out that we sometimes hold onto toxic relationships without thinking about how the relationship is affecting us personally.
Personally, yes, in my experience I've had to do this on a few occasions. I've had to let go of people who were not emotionally, or mentally healthy in my life.
This was the revelation that came to me from God:
You see, the moment that we put so much weight on people, and put them in our lives above God, they immediately become your God. I can go super deep on this, however, I'll leave this right here for you to think on it.
FOOD FOR THOUGHT
God does not tolerate the transfer of the honor and worship that is due Him to any other being or object.
Osbert Maldonado
